Solitude: Sometimes You Have to Go Inside

True Story — 8.18.26

(Higher Self in bold)

I'm scrolling through the TV guide...

Forensic Files. 🤔

"Okay...let's solve the case."

Scroll some more...

Unsolved Mysteries.

👀 Ohhhh yeah.

After finishing both shows—and obviously solving the cases in my mind 🙂😂—I noticed something.

I couldn't stop thinking about the stories.

Remember why you stopped watching shows like this? You absorb the trauma like it's yours.

🤔🤔🤔

She had a point.

I started thinking about the past few days and realized I'd been entertaining a LOT of negativity, especially on social media.

🚫 PAUSE. 🚫

Why am I doing this?

What's really going on?

You already know. You've been here before.

Do I dare say it?

Depression. 🥺

My first reaction was denial.

"Wait...when I was depressed back in the day, I drank and cried. I'm not doing either of those things."

True. But look at what you ARE doing. You're entertaining low-vibrational things and starting to become comfortable there.

😔

Ouch.

But she was right.

I was sleeping nine or ten hours.

I was waking between 2:00 and 4:00 in the morning feeling like I needed to go outside.

I wasn't feeling like myself.

And deep down...

I knew it.

Time to Go Inside

That's when I decided that beginning 8.22.26, I was going into solitude.

I call it:

Going Inside.

For me, that meant pulling back from everything so I could figure out what was happening within myself.

No social media.

No hanging out.

No unnecessary phone calls.

No constant communication.

Just...

Me.

Six years ago, that idea would've terrified me.

I've stayed in relationships longer than I should have simply because I was afraid of my own company.

Now?

I knew solitude was exactly what I needed.

I sent an email to Niel and Goddess Alicia letting them know I needed some time to get myself together.

Then, when my husband left for work, I sat.

No music.

No television.

Just me...

And the AC. 😂

Eventually, my Higher Self asked:

What's wrong?

🥺

"I'm not where I want to be in life."

"I want more."

"I feel stagnant."

There it was.

The truth.

Patience, Aisha

My Higher Self answered:

Patience, Aisha.

Not everything happens according to your timeline. Take this opportunity to practice gratitude for what you DO have.

You're learning patience.

You're learning how to love unconditionally.

And whether you realize it or not, your writing has helped people.

Keep going.

Things will work themselves out.

My response?

"But..."

😂

No buts.

Patience, Aisha.

And if I'm keeping it 💯, I didn't like how I'd been feeling.

I also knew something was wrong when I started gravitating toward those shows and negative content again.

Of course, Ego had an explanation:

"Nahhh, you're good. You're just switching things up. Besides...when was the last time you solved a case?"

😂😂😂

Nice try, Ego.

What Solitude Gave Me

Every Day, I got up and intentionally spent time alone.

I practiced breath work.

I started working out again.

I sat with my thoughts instead of trying to drown them out with noise.

And slowly, things started making sense.

Solitude gave me the space to examine my recent actions and, more importantly, understand why I was doing them.

That's why I call it Going Inside.

Because sometimes the answers we're desperately searching for everywhere else aren't out there.

They're already inside us.

Today is 8.27.26.

Originally, I said I wasn't coming back until September 1st.

But here I am...

Writing. 💚

Once I acknowledged what I was feeling, broke it down, and started working through it, I realized I didn't need to disappear until some arbitrary date.

I felt compelled to write.

So I listened.

I'm not going to intentionally keep myself away from something that helps me feel like myself simply because I picked a date on a calendar.

Solitude Isn't Isolation

There's an important difference.

For me, solitude was intentional.

I wasn't trying to hide from life.

I was creating enough quiet to hear myself again.

Sometimes we need that.

But if you're experiencing persistent sadness, major changes in sleep, hopelessness, or other symptoms that aren't improving, solitude doesn't have to mean handling everything alone. Reaching out to someone you trust or a mental-health professional can be part of taking care of yourself too.

Going inside doesn't mean shutting everyone out forever.

It means giving yourself enough space to understand what's happening inside you.

And that brings me to something else I've been thinking about...

Self-awareness.

Sometimes our own thinking can become our biggest obstacle.

And when we're not self-aware, it's incredibly easy to blame everyone and everything around us instead of asking:

"Wait...what part am I playing in this?"

So here's my question for you:

Are YOU self-aware?

Can you call yourself out?

Please reflect on your own behavior and keep it 100% with yourself.

Not just mindful...

Self-aware.

🤔

Actually...

That sounds like a pretty good topic for my next blog—or maybe the next podcast.

Until next time, my beautiful souls. 😌

Peace, Love & Light. 💚🧘🏾‍♀️

Emotions: Feel Them, Process Them, Release Them

Godd3ss Aisha

There's a line from the '90s H-Town song "Emotions" that takes me right back:

"The first time I felt emotions was when I came out of my mother's womb and cried." 😌

Ohhhh, the memories that song brings back!

But during the beginning of my Internet Fast, I found myself thinking about emotions in a completely different way.

I realized some things in my life needed to change.

Actually...

Not things.

Me. 🥺

In Meditation...

I started crying. 😭

My Higher Self asked:

"It's okay to cry. Why have you been holding back for so long?"

My answer?

"Because I have to be strong. I have to push through. Crying isn't going to solve anything."

Then came the response I needed:

"Godd3ss, crying is a form of release. Pain, joy, anger—whatever you're feeling, allow yourself to feel it. If you don't feel it, how can you begin to heal it?"

That stayed with me.

As the days passed, I found myself experiencing so many different emotions.

There was a time when my answer would've been simple:

Grab a glass.

Pour a drink.

Blast some music.

Cry until my eyelids were swollen. 🤦🏾‍♀️

Did that thought cross my mind?

Of course it did.

But then I asked myself:

And then what?

The emotions would still be there.

So instead of escaping them, I decided to sit with them.

Let's process these emotions and figure out what they're trying to tell me.

Pain 🥺

"Why are you hurting?"

If I was going to be completely honest with myself...

I already knew.

Or at least I had a pretty good idea. 🤔

Part of my pain came from realizing I had been right about something when I desperately didn't want to be.

That hurt.

So I cried.

I allowed myself to feel it.

Then I started releasing it.

Because carrying that pain wasn't changing what happened.

It was only changing me.

My sleep was off.

My eating was off.

My energy was off.

Something had to change.

Anger 🤬

Next question:

"Why are you angry?"

My immediate response?

THE AUDACITY!!! 😂

Then my Higher Self checked me:

"Is this really you...or is this pride?"

👀

Well...

There goes that ego and pride again.

Deep down, I had already seen some signs.

My intuition had been speaking.

I didn't want to listen.

And that's okay.

The lesson isn't to beat myself up because I missed—or ignored—the signs.

The lesson is to learn from them.

Sometimes those little feelings and questions inside us are telling us to slow down and pay attention.

So I reminded myself:

Patience, Goddess.

Give yourself grace.

But learn from this.

Fear 😳

Then came the hardest question:

"What are you afraid of?"

🥺

"I don't know."

"Yes, you do."

😭

"What do I do now?!"

And then...

"You already know what you're going to do. You've just lost some confidence."

That one hit me.

So I went back to something that's helped me before.

Affirmations.

Deep breath. 🧘🏾‍♀️

I am powerful.

I am abundant.

I am healthy.

I am prosperous.

I am protected and guided by The Most High.

SO IT IS. 😌

Deep breath.

Nothing magically changed overnight.

The situation was still the situation.

But I was beginning to change.

Feel It Without Living In It

I went deeper into meditation.

I cried.

I practiced my breath work.

And between the tears and breaths, I kept repeating:

"I release you."

That doesn't mean pretending something didn't happen.

It doesn't mean forgetting.

And it certainly doesn't mean every difficult emotion disappears because you meditated once.

For me, it means acknowledging what I'm feeling instead of running from it.

Our emotions can affect how we sleep, eat, communicate, work, and move through our everyday lives. Constantly suppressing them doesn't necessarily make them disappear.

Sometimes we need to permit ourselves to feel.

To cry.

To journal.

To breathe.

To pray.

To meditate.

To talk with someone we trust.

And sometimes, when things become too heavy to carry alone, reaching out for professional support can be another form of strength and self-care.

Life is going to throw curves at us like the letter B. 😂

We can't control all of them.

But we can work on how we respond.

If you're carrying emotional baggage that's been eating away at you, don't automatically bury it.

Sit with it.

Ask yourself why it's there.

Process what you can.

Learn what it's trying to teach you.

Then, when you're ready...

Release what you no longer need to carry.

And above all, give yourself grace while you're doing it.

You are not alone in this. 💚

If this message speaks to you, share it with someone you love and care about. They may be carrying emotions they haven't permitted themselves to release.

Until next time, my beautiful souls. 😌

Peace, Love & Light. 💚🧘🏾‍♀️

Breathe In Peace, Breathe Out What No Longer Serves You 🌿💚

Godd3ss Aisha

In a world that constantly demands our attention, sometimes the most powerful thing we can do is pause and take a breath.

Not just any breath—but an intentional breath.

Breathwork is one of my favorite ways to start the day, release tension, reconnect with myself, and create a sense of calm before life starts pulling me in a hundred different directions.

Many people think breathwork is simply breathing in and breathing out, but it's so much more than that. True breathwork begins deep in the belly.

Take a slow, deep breath in through your nose and allow your stomach to expand. Hold that breath for a few seconds—or perhaps a count of ten, if that feels comfortable for you. As you hold it, think about what no longer serves you—the worries, fears, frustrations, and negative energy that you're carrying.

Then slowly release the breath through your mouth until every last bit of air is gone.

As you exhale, imagine releasing everything that isn't aligned with the person you're becoming.

Stress.

Doubt.

Fear.

Tension.

Let it go.

One of the most fascinating things about breathwork is that we naturally knew how to do it when we entered this world. Watch a newborn baby breathe, and you'll notice their belly rises and falls effortlessly. They breathe deeply and naturally.

Somewhere along the way, many of us stopped.

We began taking shallow breaths from our chest, moving quickly through life without ever truly connecting to the present moment.

Breathwork invites us back.

Back to ourselves.

Back to the moment.

Back to peace.

The beautiful thing is that breathwork can be used anywhere. Before a big presentation. Before making a difficult decision. During a stressful day. Before a workout. Before bed.

Sometimes all it takes is a few intentional breaths to shift your entire mindset.

So today, permit yourself to pause.

Take a deep breath.

Relax your shoulders.

Release what no longer serves you.

And remember:

You are stronger than you think.

You are worthy.

You are capable.

You are amazing.

The breath is always there, waiting to guide you back home to yourself. 💚😌